So many things have changed since I came to poly, and that includes meeting my dearest current bf. Thinking back about it, all those heartbreaks in the past are just lessons learnt in life to achieve better in the future. Losing and closing the past may mean opening up an opportunity for something better in the future.
Being so immature from the start of sec 1, to experiencing a lesson in sec 2, and even playing around in sec 3, thinking back on these actions that I had done, are all just parts of what a teenager goes through. Secondary 4 was the biggest lesson I had went through, and that taught me so much more, so much on how some things cannot be forced if it's never meant to be. Doing stupid things, trying so hard even when a part of you knew that giving up was the best choice. -> these lessons were the ones that taught me to be more sensible, that in a relationship, having to fear that he or she will leave you one day is just not part of what a relationship should have. What's meant to be, will be, and that's what I tell myself now. If he's meant to leave, keeping him will just hurt both parties, because maybe you will meet someone more compatible with you in the future.
All I can do is thank My love for being able to gain the acceptance of my parents, and for being there for me, trying to get rid of my overflowing insecurities. This new feeling of not needing to hide any relationship from my parents is so refreshing, it felt like a big step towards what I always wanted to achieve - freedom.
Maybe, just maybe, slowly, everyone's growing up, while in some people's perspective, growing old. It's just that sometimes people fail to stop and look around that while they are growing more and more mature, their parents are growing older day by day.
