Late night thoughts once again. Its been three weeks since the start of school ( I guess? ) and things had been really hectic. Having the SpookDEcular event, celebrating Halloween at both the events and USS and Spooktacular at Fort Siloso really boosted my courage a lot. I remembered how I first went for the event last year, and I almost screamed till I lost my voice. This time round, I somehow felt normal, not that scared anymore. Maybe its just the mindset.
Falling sick was maybe the turning point for this whole month. Been feeling fat again these past few weeks at the rate I'm eating. I guess its normal for any attached girl to eat so much because their boyfriend always stuff them with food, but I cant help feeling so guilty at the rate I'm eating. I guess falling sick was a blessing in disguise. I can control my diet and at the same time, stay at home and catch up on the work and studies I had not done these past few days. Feeling emotional these few days and I do not know the exact reason to that too. Maybe its just my perplexed heart, maybe its just me being too paranoid and thinking too much. Do I want to find out the exact reason on why I'm feeling that way? Will I ever find out? Nonetheless, I'm glad I still have my dearest boyfriend with me, always making me feel assured, feel safe and more secured. I am a really insecure person, and I really do not know how does he tolerate my nonsense, my mood swings, my temper. There may be times when he couldn't tolerate it, but in the end, he's still there for me, and I'm so glad for that. I still believe that it was fate that pulled us together. Having to go through so much before being with you, I'm sure that cherishing you and treasuring this relationship is worth it. Having a past does not matter, as long we learn from it and do not make the same mistakes again. Presently, having you is the best thing that has ever happened. I do not know what the future holds, but I hope you will still be in it.
