Its been around 5 months since school first started, and its been like a roller coaster ride for me. When I first started poly life, it felt like a totally different environment compared to secondary school. Not lying, at first I thought my secondary school was kind of screwed up, and that poly life was so much better. But the longer I am in poly, the more I regretted not cherishing my secondary school days. I don't know what to say about it, but many things had been going though my mind - studies, friends, sleep.. Sometimes I did not even know who to trust, who to tell my feelings to. Promises friends made about trusting them seemed so shallow, regards and smiles to me seemed so artificial.Sometimes I tell myself, who will like me and befriend me for who I really am. I'm such a crude woman, not thinking before I utter stuffs, not thinking about other people's feelings before speaking. That's just who I am, I'm always feeling so guilty whenever I hurt someone unintentionally. These few months had taught me plenty, taught me who to trust, taught me how to live life, and I'm glad I met some of the people in poly that I can trust now, that I can be myself when I'm with them, that will support me in whatever I do.
And I thank those that accept me for who I am.
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