Accidentally showing how vulnerable I was to my mum after putting on a strong front for years made me realize that no matter how much I want to be independent, at times when I'm helpless, I can't.
I literally had mind-blowing cramps and I swear it was the worst I had ever felt. Was on the verge of fainting in the bathroom and I literally curled up on the sofa and cried out loudly. Even after they left home for lunch I continued curling up in a little ball and cry, then forced myself to fall asleep to forget the pain. I only remembered experiencing severe cramps when I was in school, and I cried only because I was also having gastric and stomach ache at the same time. But I swear this pain I felt alone was worst than what I had ever felt. Little actions from my mum such as giving me panadols & feeding me( because I could not even hold a cup without dropping it ) & showing how concerned she was made me realize how lucky I actually am. Imagine if I was all alone, curling up in a little ball with no help at all is actually depressing. My parents are not those kind of parents which outwardly show how much they care about me, especially my mum, but I'm glad to know the fact that no matter what happens, my family will still be there for me.
Sidetracking abit, my dad was more worried than me about my O's because he seriously thought I would do very badly. Not much faith in me but relieved at the same time that at least he cared.
I know I actually look fine here but the fact is that I did not even comb my hair because at first I did not have the strength to ( yes that was how painful it was ) and after I got back my strength I was just too lazy.
New book to read. Wanted to buy a fiction book instead ( like those whole set kinda thing ) but this caught my eye so..
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